small steps... BIG REWARDS

Today another milestone.  For the first time in YEARs I can proudly say I did a situp without my trainers assistance, didn't cheat and not only did one... but many!  wooo hooo!  Imagine if you will laying on the ground and struggling to do one sit up!  And 3 people staring at you as you fail time and time again....bleh!  That was Friday last week. 

Today!  Big Whoop to myself for doing too many to count...all alone....no helpski.....did I mention nobody lifting my back!  So I am dancing a happy dance for myself and kissing that flabby fooba goodbye!

Demon Meat haha

Take it for what it is.  My sister brings me joy in some of the craziest ways, but I love her for that and embrace the crazy.  haha!

Today I woke up, went for a bike ride at the beach and then got my nails done a beautiful pink with a white flower.  Lovely.  While there my sister decided to discuss Demon Meat!  haha  WTH is Demon Meat you ask?

Pork Ribs! ........Clearly

Apparently when you eat enough Pork Ribs you have demonic dreams and nightmares.  I'm grateful that I do not eat Pork Ribs all that often, in fact rarely, so THANK YA BABY JESUS!!
However, back to the Demon Meat,  after discussing my diet with my girlfriends yesterday, I need more MEAT/Protein!   Ha ha.  LIKE  : ).... in a bad way! But seriously, I do need to be more aware of my diet.  I'm realizing that working out as hard as I am I require more protein.  You get programmed to think that carbs, sugar, meat is bad, eat more veggies, fruit, etc.  What the reality is is BALANCE. My Diet is out of balance, and my views need to be current and be modified.  I am living a lifestyle not a moment in time because I never want to end up here again!  My goal is to be more real with my diet, and try and find a daily realistic approach while I am working out like  a MOFO and needing more energy.  Future posts to come!

Part 2 -  My life is out of balance and has been for too long.  It's been out of balance in my marriage past, and in my current life.  My life is a work in progress or I'm a work in progress. 

Balance to me means health, relationships, financial, living in the moment! 

I am not being very realistic in my health in regards to my diet, and ok while I am really being honest relationships need work.  I have a relationship that needs to end, after 32 years, and I know that, see it and realize it, but am sad about it as much as I don't want to be married anymore.    A work in progress and in some regard a Demon Meat.  I never want a second serving, never want to taste it again, and don't want the nightmares anymore, but remember how sweet it was the first time I had it and how badly I wanted it again. 

BE DAMNED DEMON MEAT! and be gone!  In return I will happily accept BALANCE!

Butterflies are free to fly

I saw this in the middle of a mall and thought it was so beautiful to be surrounded by butterflies!  

Today I am flying because I made it through my week.  3 bootycamps, 2 Zumba classes and lot's of late night/early morning driving and inservicing.  A challenging week for sure, but I am so proud of myself.  I usually find an excuse not to go to class at least once a week, but this week I just wouldn't have it, and after a 7pm Zumba class last night and feeling physically exhausted and waking up at 6:30 to drive to Bootique Fitness.....I so wanted to lay in bed.  My hard work is paying off and I am going to be coming out of that fat cocoon I created sooner than later!

I am down 35 lbs!

So this was me about a year ago and I honestly want to slap myself and say WTF? I weighed at least 255 here and continued to gain into the 260's.   Thankfully at the beginning of January, the 1st to be exact I made a personal vow to change my life and my stars.  I woke up on that day and dragged my butt to Zumba.  I thought I was so happy and joyful here, but was so trapped and miserable in my own skin.  I would never EVER post a photo of myself usually it would be of my dog, or pics of where I was etc., never of me because I couldn't stand to look at me. 

I guess looking at me made me have to acknowledge how obese I had become and I wasn't really ready to face the music.  Having left a 32 year relationship, I have been struggling to gain balance in my life, finding who I am and regaining my identity.  Finding my bliss and getting back to happy happy joy joy. 

Posting this picture is my confidence shining through that I won't ever be this sad lonely person again, that I am FREE to be ME, and I am excited to LIVE my LIFE!

Here I am today at around 225 but not sure, I haven't weighed myself in several weeks.  Booty Camp and Zumba are my "partners" right now, and I am committed to this relationship ; )

 Here are some more pics of my journey to freedom:

 I took this some time in February.  Lot's of face shots because I don't have a way to take a full photo or perhaps don't want to haha!

 This one I took just before I went and saw my favorite Hawaiian band that I had asked a certain SurferDude to go with but was turned down :(  but my sister went with me instead.  March 2, 2012.  I hadn't worn this top in years, and honestly, it was a little snug around my fooba, which is my name for the Food Baby that I am donating back to the food bank haha!












 This picture isn't really that much long after, perhaps only a few weeks, but I am feeling so much happiness and joy and have much to celebrate.